How I.T. changed my life.

GE. That's all i knew about IT. the only GE which had a separte lecture and lab. I was dreaming of taking this course since last semester. I finally got it. It was a new thing for me because it's the first class that i have that runs 3 hours straight. It's an advantage for me since i would get used to long hours of lab during my Proper years. (because i'm taking up vet med.) It wasn't easy at first. I would fall asleep in the middle of class (as if i don't do this in every subject hahaha! just kidding!) I was never the "techy" type of person. All i knew was the basics. How to use the mouse the keyboard, play solitaire and net games, do reports using word. But after a few meetings i knew how the computer works, how to understand its language, heck, i even learned that the spreadsheet wasn't just a table! I know i'll learn more of the thing they call a computer. IT may be my favorite subject yet...just cross out the exams and i'll be just fine ^_^

wrong info...wrong timing...

It was just this afternoon when i found out he was courting my friend...

Of course i was dumbstruck...I didn't know what to do or feel...should i be angry with my friend for keeping their communication secret? or should i get angry with the boy who made me feel light as a cloud but left me floating in mid-air...It's funny though...i began to pity myself after that..."Kung sa bagay...mas maganda siya sakin." How can you spend the next days with someone who broke your heart? at ang masakit pa dun, hindi nya alam na nasaktan nya ako. Feb fair is coming up and my org mates and i decided to build and finish our booth by the end of the day.

"Huy jam! nakatulala ka nanaman!"
"Ay senxa na...may iniicip lang..."

Yeah, i was thinking about something alright! whether i'm going to cry or not...i hate these kind of situations. I'm supposed to be giddy because it's going to be my first ever feb fair in u.p. as the title implies it was definitely wrong timing. I couldn't concentrate on my work, i mean i almost got hit by the kawayan my brod was carrying.

I went home teary eyed. I just couldn't forget how my friend broke it down to me.

'06 or '03?

"Mukha ba akong '03!?"

DO I REALLY LOOK THAT OLD!?

It was another monday and i set off for the biosci building where my nasc 9 class was held. Before i went up the stairs a guy came up to me and asked where the ncas building is.

It was the 2nd semester, obviously he was a '06 beta batch. You know, the one's who decided to wait for the second sem to roll in so they can get a slot into the university.

I told him it was just across the street. He said, "Salamat ate!"

"'06 din ako wag mo akong tawaging ate. " I said with half a smile.

"Ah ganun ba? Akala ko senior ka na. Cge ah! Bye!"

IT INSTANTLY PISSED ME OFF!!!! I wanted to follow him and box his face but i figured i'll get him next time because i was late for class.

MAN!!! '03!? What a way to start the week.

freshman

I felt that it was a big transistion when i became a freshman...
New friends.
New BOYS to meet.
New Environment.

and maybe...

A new me...

There was definitely change. A BIG one.
The first time i slept in my dorm i said to myself, "Freedom at last..."

No dad to tell me to fix my room.

No mom to tell me to come home early.

No pesky sibs.

For a teenager, it was heaven.

"Leche, college na ako...ang bilis."


My first week was great. I met loads of people. i went home later than my dorm's curfew. My room was messier than my room back home.

But after that, i started to feel the change. Everyday i went to class with different people. No permanent friends whatsoever. Sometimes i went to class alone. I couldn't see the floor of my room because of the clothes that were scattered everywhere. I started missing my old room. My friends. my mum and dad. heck even my sibs.

Soon after i started picking up my things one by one. I fixed my books and put them in their proper places. It took me two whole hours to clean up. Man! It felt good to see the floor again. IT was hard to admit that my dad was right. Though it felt good to make a mess sometimes.

Change? Of course there was change...

it hurts

damn...
i just couldn't help myself...
i just proved that patience do have its limits...

WHY CAN'T SHE JUST SHUT UP!?

WHY CAN'T SHE TELL THAT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!?

WHY CAN'T SHE UNDERSTAND WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH!?

iF SHE IS READING THIS...I REALLY HATE YOURIGHT NOW...BUT I COULDN'T TELL YOU FACE TO FACE...'coz you're like my sister...and i can't tell you to stop...'coz your not that kind of person...crying won't make you stop teasing me or making me remember things i don't want to remember...

coz it hurts...

so much...

and it hurts even more now that it's coming from you...

out of all the people i know...you're the one who's doing this to me...

i thought that at least you're one of the people who would help me carry on...

but dammit i was wrong...

and you know what...

i don't know what i'm feeling ryt now...i don't wanna get angry but i am...

PUNO NA AKO! ETO NA UNG PINAKAMATINDING GINAWA MO SAKIN!

ibang klase...

wag kang mag alala...
khit baliktarin q man ang mundo aq naman ang unang mag so2rry sau eh...

After 3 days without sleep...

I feel like there's no end for this summer. Am i getting a little restless? Or is it just the heat? I've been in front of the computer for 3 days in a row...with little sleep...and little intake of food...but i don't see myself getting thinner...darn it...

Anyway, I don't go out much and i don't do much stuff during this summer...so my mind's ben a little idle this month, so things just enter my head...especially thoughts of Paolo...
You know...the guy who made me wait for sooooo loooong...it's really hard forgetting an experience like him...I wanna see him...and talk to him...but something inside tells me i shouldn't...i know my heart can't take it anymore...but i think i'm still not getting the idea that i should forget him...my heart keeps hoping for the day he would be the one who would make the first move...

I've been searching for someone exactly like you

I’ve been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I’ve been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied.
Someone exactlyLike you.
I’ve been travellin’ a hard road
Lookin’ for someone exactly like you
I’ve been carryin’ my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come
Shining through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied.
Someone exactly
Like you.
I’ve been doin’ some soul searching
To find out where you’re at
I’ve been up and down the highwayIn all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you...
I’ve been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a differentDrum.
But just lately I have
Realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you...

An unexpected guest

He called me at home in the middle of the afternoon. I thought we were going to have a long conversation so i pulled up a seat next to the phone. Then he suddenly asked me if he could spend the afternoon at my house and if i could teach him some guitar basics. Of course automatically i said yes...

Darn emotions...

Well anyway, i gave him my address and off he went. I on the other hand took a bath...I don't want to smell funky around him you know, considering it was sooooo hot that aftertoon that it magnifies even the faintest scent. It wasn't long before he found my house. It was nice seeing him again, since it was such a long time since i last saw him. He looked taller than before...
I asked him to take a seat and then he pulled out a bar of TOBLERONE *my 2nd most favorite chocolate next to hershey's* and gave it to me...

Of course kinilig ako...

it's not everyday that someone gives me chocolates!

Then i brought out my brother's guitar and taught him a few chords. (hopefully he still remembers!) I couldn't help but think that it's unusual for him to do things like this. He was carefully strumming the guiatr, trying not to make a mistake...
I just smiled and patiently taught him the way the song had to be strummed, when to change chords...
I had fun, and hopefully so did he. We talked for a while and after that we took pictures of ourselves on his phone and then we used the PC. I let him use it for a while, and then he decided that he'd go home because it was getting late. 7 pm is already late.

After he left, i thought the day was over, but no, he called me up then another conversation pulled through, he was telling me he had such a great time that he'd be doing it again soon.

Is he pushing me to tell him i like him?
I don't think it's not the right time...
after all he's still recovering from a heartache...