Locket space for RENT!!!! need asap!

My friend gave me this locket...
i dunno why the heck he chose to give me this kind of trinket...
i stared at it the first time i held it.
"Sino naman ang lalagay ko dito?" was my first reaction...
"Bahala ka...pero may feeling ako na SIYA ang ilalagay mo dyan..."
SIYA...meaning the one really wanted to forget....
but...
i'm scared to put his picture in it...
there's a possibility that my friends will see his pic and react as if i did something very wrong...
still..
i'm confused...
stupid kasi...
why am i giving attention to this friggin' locket....
yet...
it won't hurt anyone if i put his picture in it ryt?
RIGHT!?

Somehow i don't want to go to school anymore...

I just arrived home from school...
i know it's not yet the friday...we just went there to take a look at the list of the sections...
almsot all of my friends were my classmates....
but how come...
the most important people you wanna be with suddenly ends up in the other room...
on the other side of the tracks...
yeah i know...i'm a little bit selfish...
but....
who am i going to talk to about things that are fun to talk about? like boys....
i know it won't be the same...
and i have to give space for change....
i gotta stop fighting the inevitable...
but it really sucks....
and i hate it...
there'll be no more "pssst!"'s in the middle of classes....
no one will laugh at the same things you think that's funny...
our class may seem complete for some of my classmates...
but not for me...

Facing the inevitable...

I just got off the phone with one of my frends....
before our conversation ended we were talking about this guy that really liked her....
the guy was also a close frend of mine...
i knew almost everything to know about this guy...
i even know what his dreams were...
you know...
having a family and designing this big house...
everything he wanted needs to be perfect...
i asked this guy once that what if what he wanted just didn't come out as expected...
like what if you wanted a red gumball but a blue one came out...
or you wanted a son as a first-born...but ended up getting a daughter...
and what if the girl you really wanted to be with for the rest of your life suddenly fell for another man...
wouldn't it just make you feel shattered?
but my guy friend didn't even say a word...
add the fact that he got angry at me for saying such things...
he said,"What did i ever do to you..."
I was just trying to make him see that even though you're planning so hard for your future...
there are such times that would steer you off course and maybe leave your dreams crumpled on the floor...
these kind of things are bound to happen...
you can't escape the inevitable...

I gotta get this off my head...and my heart...

Nakakainiz talaga...
i remember his pathetic looking face everywhere i turn...
in every song i hear on the radio...
in every story i write...
leche...
i really hate him right now...
it's driving me up the wall...
i just wish something would hit my head and erase the only part of my brain that contains every memory 'bout him...
i really have to get this off of my head...
and most especially...
my heart...

I went to a concert....AND WOW WAS IT ROCKIN'!

here it goes...
I went to Alabang town center to watch a friend and his band perform along with many other amatuer bands....some were good and had potential of getting their own album...
but some i think they were just there to flash their brand new guitars, sway their supah long hairs that were tied back...but they weren't really good singers nor song writers...
The concert had more up its sleeve than untalented bands...supah cute guys were flooding the activity center!!! I couldn't keep count...all of them were from La salle!!! by the time i started gwaping at the "hunkies" i forgot what i was there for...
let's go back to my frend's band, they were pretty good actually considering the fact that the lead singer Andrew (the friend i was telling you about) was about 16 almost as my age.
I enjoyed the concert especially when MAYONNAISE performed after 2 gruelling hours! i sang along and got to sit beside the lead singer of the band!!! hay...
if only i had enogh guts to ask for an autograph....
the concert was great...
but it wud be much more fun if i didn't have to watch alone ryt?

So caught up!

wow...
it's been a long time since i last posted something! i've been so caught up on updating my blog template that forgot all about what i was designing it for...
hahaha...
well...anyway...
there's not much goin' on 'round my house...
oh yeah!
I FINISHED THE DRAWING! you know, the family portrait for mah dear "frends who really wanna be lovers but can't!" get it?!
if you don't maybe i'm just really tired 'bout all this updating drawing and writing at the same time!hay.....

what to talk about....
hmmm....
wonder what everyone's doin'
obviously i know steph's doin' something she just never runs out of what to do...
....perky...
hmmm...
'bout jo...she just signed of a while ago in ym....
jade too...
I REALLY WANNA GO OUT BUT I HAVE NO PLACE TO GO! I"M STUCK AT HOME DOIN' CHORES!
(sigh!)

The countdown

8 days...
8 days until i hit the books again...
8 days until i raise my hand once again to recite...
8 days until i see his face again...
somehow there's something that doesn't want me to go back to school...
i'm afaraid to tell you the truth...
afraid that it's another year of rejection from him...
god...
if this keeps up...
it'll be 11 years...
11 years of waiting...
and unnoticed good deeds...
i'm sick of it all...
but i guess it's inevitable...
even if i scream like a foghorn...
or drown myself...
i know june 10 will still come...
it sucks...