it hurts

damn...
i just couldn't help myself...
i just proved that patience do have its limits...

WHY CAN'T SHE JUST SHUT UP!?

WHY CAN'T SHE TELL THAT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!?

WHY CAN'T SHE UNDERSTAND WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH!?

iF SHE IS READING THIS...I REALLY HATE YOURIGHT NOW...BUT I COULDN'T TELL YOU FACE TO FACE...'coz you're like my sister...and i can't tell you to stop...'coz your not that kind of person...crying won't make you stop teasing me or making me remember things i don't want to remember...

coz it hurts...

so much...

and it hurts even more now that it's coming from you...

out of all the people i know...you're the one who's doing this to me...

i thought that at least you're one of the people who would help me carry on...

but dammit i was wrong...

and you know what...

i don't know what i'm feeling ryt now...i don't wanna get angry but i am...

PUNO NA AKO! ETO NA UNG PINAKAMATINDING GINAWA MO SAKIN!

ibang klase...

wag kang mag alala...
khit baliktarin q man ang mundo aq naman ang unang mag so2rry sau eh...

After 3 days without sleep...

I feel like there's no end for this summer. Am i getting a little restless? Or is it just the heat? I've been in front of the computer for 3 days in a row...with little sleep...and little intake of food...but i don't see myself getting thinner...darn it...

Anyway, I don't go out much and i don't do much stuff during this summer...so my mind's ben a little idle this month, so things just enter my head...especially thoughts of Paolo...
You know...the guy who made me wait for sooooo loooong...it's really hard forgetting an experience like him...I wanna see him...and talk to him...but something inside tells me i shouldn't...i know my heart can't take it anymore...but i think i'm still not getting the idea that i should forget him...my heart keeps hoping for the day he would be the one who would make the first move...

I've been searching for someone exactly like you

I’ve been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I’ve been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied.
Someone exactlyLike you.
I’ve been travellin’ a hard road
Lookin’ for someone exactly like you
I’ve been carryin’ my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come
Shining through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied.
Someone exactly
Like you.
I’ve been doin’ some soul searching
To find out where you’re at
I’ve been up and down the highwayIn all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you...
I’ve been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a differentDrum.
But just lately I have
Realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you...

An unexpected guest

He called me at home in the middle of the afternoon. I thought we were going to have a long conversation so i pulled up a seat next to the phone. Then he suddenly asked me if he could spend the afternoon at my house and if i could teach him some guitar basics. Of course automatically i said yes...

Darn emotions...

Well anyway, i gave him my address and off he went. I on the other hand took a bath...I don't want to smell funky around him you know, considering it was sooooo hot that aftertoon that it magnifies even the faintest scent. It wasn't long before he found my house. It was nice seeing him again, since it was such a long time since i last saw him. He looked taller than before...
I asked him to take a seat and then he pulled out a bar of TOBLERONE *my 2nd most favorite chocolate next to hershey's* and gave it to me...

Of course kinilig ako...

it's not everyday that someone gives me chocolates!

Then i brought out my brother's guitar and taught him a few chords. (hopefully he still remembers!) I couldn't help but think that it's unusual for him to do things like this. He was carefully strumming the guiatr, trying not to make a mistake...
I just smiled and patiently taught him the way the song had to be strummed, when to change chords...
I had fun, and hopefully so did he. We talked for a while and after that we took pictures of ourselves on his phone and then we used the PC. I let him use it for a while, and then he decided that he'd go home because it was getting late. 7 pm is already late.

After he left, i thought the day was over, but no, he called me up then another conversation pulled through, he was telling me he had such a great time that he'd be doing it again soon.

Is he pushing me to tell him i like him?
I don't think it's not the right time...
after all he's still recovering from a heartache...